So much of this resonated deeply with me. Sometimes I fantasize about what I would do with my days if I didn't worry so much about being busy and productive, holding down a job, and making money. I simultaneously long for it and dread the anxious feelings that would inevitably creep up. After this new moon in Capricorn forcing us to redefine what success means to us, I think a lot of us are being called to slow down and savor life, to actually live in that present moment instead of always chasing the next thing.
I also love your idea of imagining what comes in the next frame after the image in a card. May have to try that sometime. :)
Love this essay (as I do all others)! Enjoy the restful summer Katie. As for the answer to your question, it is difficult for me not to have a plan, but less so now than before. I used to always need a plan, but being with my partner who's more easygoing and spontaneous has loosened me up. Now I enjoy the stillness and emptiness of time stretched in front of me much more!
"The months of June and July in Mid-Missouri were spineless, any semblance of structure softened by the humidity that hung low over the fields surrounding my home. Each day was a cube of watermelon flesh placed on my tongue, juices coursing down my cheeks and pooling under my chin. I could eat it as slowly as I wished."
"Today, I will spin in circles under the darkening sky and watch the damselflies swarm above me, a chaotic cacophony of gossamer wings and slender bodies that zigzag wildly yet never collide."
"I go to reach for Time but stop. A dragonfly alights on the brim of its hat and runs its spindly legs over its eyes."
SUCH incredible prose, Katie. This was beautiful to read.
I relate to this a lot!! I quit my job of 17.5 years at the beginning of the year and I feel like it's only now, months later, that I know I do not have to be productive all the time. I still have my beloved lists, but I also take a lot of time for leisure that I never used to. I am finally getting used to not knowing what comes next and am enjoying just being here now. I am so grateful for this time.
This was incredible and enlightening. Thank you for sharing your perspective and thoughts!
So much of this resonated deeply with me. Sometimes I fantasize about what I would do with my days if I didn't worry so much about being busy and productive, holding down a job, and making money. I simultaneously long for it and dread the anxious feelings that would inevitably creep up. After this new moon in Capricorn forcing us to redefine what success means to us, I think a lot of us are being called to slow down and savor life, to actually live in that present moment instead of always chasing the next thing.
I also love your idea of imagining what comes in the next frame after the image in a card. May have to try that sometime. :)
Absolutely lovely
Love this essay (as I do all others)! Enjoy the restful summer Katie. As for the answer to your question, it is difficult for me not to have a plan, but less so now than before. I used to always need a plan, but being with my partner who's more easygoing and spontaneous has loosened me up. Now I enjoy the stillness and emptiness of time stretched in front of me much more!
Ahh, Katie. I love this interpretation of 9 of Pentacles so much. Especially having just read that Audre Lorde essay myself.
"The months of June and July in Mid-Missouri were spineless, any semblance of structure softened by the humidity that hung low over the fields surrounding my home. Each day was a cube of watermelon flesh placed on my tongue, juices coursing down my cheeks and pooling under my chin. I could eat it as slowly as I wished."
"Today, I will spin in circles under the darkening sky and watch the damselflies swarm above me, a chaotic cacophony of gossamer wings and slender bodies that zigzag wildly yet never collide."
"I go to reach for Time but stop. A dragonfly alights on the brim of its hat and runs its spindly legs over its eyes."
SUCH incredible prose, Katie. This was beautiful to read.
I relate to this a lot!! I quit my job of 17.5 years at the beginning of the year and I feel like it's only now, months later, that I know I do not have to be productive all the time. I still have my beloved lists, but I also take a lot of time for leisure that I never used to. I am finally getting used to not knowing what comes next and am enjoying just being here now. I am so grateful for this time.